A Different Existence

Had tiny eyes and crooked fingers

This is from when the world was asleep for me

I was wearing new clothes on my bare body

At that time I did not understand any kind of festival

Even then he used to celebrate every festival with me

Wetting the bed or crying at night

There was only one father whom I 

used to put to sleep without sleep

He would play with me in the morning, 

Then earn during the day and return in the evening

Sometimes self test, 

sometimes the world was tormented

There was only one father who made me laugh

 while hiding his sorrow

I was dumb with words,

 but he was understanding all my gestures

I myself am surprised today

 how he was reading me yesterday

Leave it “Baba”, even then it was not coming out “Ba”

 But still in that he was fulfilling my every wish

And i was also falling in love with him

Sometimes he used to become a horse, 

Sometimes an elephant for my one smile.

And sleep peacefully all night me

That’s why he used to pass in one turn all night

Not father, he is a magician

If I wanted new clothes, he would bring them to me immediately

I don’t know why he used to sew

 his old sandals and wear them

He is the walking idol of God

That’s why maybe he could

 change my fate with his blessings.

 Jyotirmayee Panda

Odisha, Cuttack